StarShadowist

10/5/17 Update: Still trying to get my computer to work >.> It's very laggy, photoshop barely runs, and I have to have a bunch of patience to sit down and work on a manip. It crashes about 50 million times while I'm trying to work on something, then to top it off I have to renew my photoshop so I'll have to wait for my brother to help me with that. In the mean time I'm half tempted to wait until my brother moves back in with us. He has a computer he barely uses and it runs a hell of a lot better than mine right now. If I end up doing that then I should have my commissions finished by November. After that I don't intend on opening up commissions again any time soon. I still feel really burnt out on art, especially commissions, so again I'm really sorry for the wait. If I owe you a commission I promise I'll upgrade them. So if you ordered a $5-10 commission I'll make it worth at least $25.

Okay so I know it's been a while and I've overall been very absent from deviantart so for that I do apologize. So as a brief explanation as to why I haven't been around - I broke up with my boyfriend a few weeks ago and overall have been feeling pretty crappy. Insomnia, stressed out, depressed, ect. So I've literally just spent the last few weeks being a walking ball of stress. This past weekend I finally made the trip to Ohio to get the rest of my things (I won't go far into detail, but having your ex threaten to sell your things or break them and you can't do anything about it has been where the majority of my stress has come from) so I'm glad to have that over and done with. 

As for why I haven't been around on deviantart, aka procrastinating on my commissions, is that my laptop has decided it absolutely hates my guts. I've had issues with it before, but now it's at the point where it really wants to act up. It barely runs chrome now, much less photoshop, so I will be taking it to my brother since he knows a hell of a lot more about computers than I do. I'm sure if I tried to fix it I'd make it worse. So I'm going to get him to clean it off for me and then see if that fixes it. 

So after that is done with I'm going to catch up on the very overdue commissions I owe people. After that I will be closing them down for a few reasons. One is I feel like the money I make off of my commissions isn't enough, and yet at the same time I'd feel guilty raising the prices. So in short, I hate lowering the prices to the point where I feel like I'm selling myself short. Lately I've just felt so burnt out about doing art at all, and then I feel worse when it takes me longer to get to my commissions, but I also don't believe in giving crap out, especially when someone has paid me for art. So even though I won't be opening up commissions, I still want to further my skill and try and improve in the areas I know I need to improve, so I may open up a few request slots every so often, though it won't be any time soon and it may only be one at a time. 

I also will be slower on art because, now that I have retrieved my birth certificate and other important documents from my ex's house, I plan on signing up for job corps. I do intend on bringing my laptop, but I'm not entirely sure how much time I'll have to actually work on artwork while I'm there. If I don't get into job corps though my backup plan is preparing myself to try and sign back up for the military. So either way, I won't be around to post a whole lot of artwork after I finish these commissions. 

So not many of you know, but my mom had surgery this past Wedneday on her neck due to parts of her bone disintegrating. It went well, though she has a lot of bruising and she still won't be home until tomorrow. She'll be bedridden for a few weeks at least so I'm sticking around at her house for a while longer until she's able to go back to work. So if I don't post a lot of art it's because I'm either babysitting my nephew (she has custody of him), sleeping, or being a nanny for my mom and 16 year old brother who somehow manages to trash the entire house over the course of one night. 

So why haven't I been around the last month? 

It's been a mixture of the above really. Mom had been working a lot of open to close shifts at her store to get more money for her surgery leaving me at home to babysit with my boyfriend. He left yesterday so I've spent the last week spending time with him before he had to leave since I won't see him for at least a month. So between that, insomnia, and stress, I haven't had much muse to work on anything in my free time. I feel better making people wait so I know I'm not going to spit out crap. 

So I know apologies aren't enough for those waiting for commissions from me, but I promise I will be working on those over the coarse of the next two weeks. It might be a little slow because my computer barely runs photoshop anymore, but they will get done.

So like the title says I'm looking for art trades. I'll be doing a manip on my end - though I'm happy to accept digital art or a manip from the other person. My babies need more art and I'm tired of doing art for myself xD You don't have to be on my "level" or whatever! If anyone's interested I'll edit this to list my characters and you can choose one of my chars once we agree on something. 

Soooo I'm sorry if I haven't posted anything - my life has been totally unproductive as of late.... So next I guess the question is why have I not posted anything or done anything useful with my life? 

The Witcher 3 has consumed my life and soul xD 

Recently got it, maybe a week ago? (idk, my days have all meshed together now into one giant blur) and I haven't been able to pull myself away from it lol So yeah, probably gonna be hooked on this for a while, but I'll do my best to make some room for more art.